Archive for April, 2010

10,000 Foot View

30 April 2010

Think of the oil spill in the Gulf from a 10,000 foot view. Think of the pathetic humans shouting and scuttling about, trying to control what they’ve released. Think of the life damaged and dieing, all for human greed and hubris, all so we may live our rich little lives of luxurious banality.

One can’t help but feel that we’re getting desperate now, caught between our need for the energy to sustain our lifestyle and the harm that getting and using that energy causes the world. “Oh shit, but we can’t stop….”

Digging

11 April 2010

Today I dug up the area where we’ll soon plant kale, collards, and Swiss chard. It was just dry enough to turn over after last week’s rain, but not dry enough to rake out and plant. Sounds like we’re in for some more t-storms late Monday into Tuesday, so planting may have to wait until next weekend. This is a really early spring so far; feels like it will continue into a hot summer.

While digging up the greens bed, removed more of the ever-present plastic sheeting of various kinds we used for mulch 5-10 years ago, in a futile attempt to thwart the quack grass without effort. We’ve learned since that quack grass will defeat any kind of plastic mulch, and in fact seems to like it. Also found and removed more pieces of what was apparently carpet used as mulch. Well, at least we’ve learned the lesson: never use synthetics for mulch — it just doesn’t work.

Have also been removing quite a bit more glass from various areas of the garden this spring. It’s normal for things buried in the soil to be revealed in spring, especially after the first spring rains, and I may be digging glass out of our garden for the rest of my life. Makes it tough on the boys, who want to be out there in bare feet, but in a month or so their feet will be toughened up and they’re also getting old enough to watch where they walk.

G and I also worked on making a permanent stone path in the garden out of flat pieces of urbanite and limestone. That helps to keep people from walking in places where plants grow and to divide up the space.

One Onion Up

10 April 2010

One onion up from the seeds I planted on 4/3.

Planted more onions today plus 4 pots each (two seeds in each pot) of Yellow Brandywine and Matt’s Red Cherry tomato.

The Lazy Doomer

9 April 2010

Tonight I had three hours with no one home that I could have used to get something done — my to-do lists are longer than ever.

But what did I do? I read news and blogs on the web and managed to get out in the yard and putter around for maybe an hour. Pathetic.

And what am I doing now? I have so little to do that I can write about not doing anything?

I’m perfectly willing to buy stuff and read about TEOTWAWKI, but when it comes to getting stuff done to get ready for it, I’m not so great.

On the other hand, I do hold down a stressful, mentally challenging full-time job. Yesterday when I got home from work I was so stressed out I could hardly think straight. I felt physically ill.

One could go two ways from there:

  1. So what? The future doesn’t care about you or your stress, it’s coming whether you prepare for it or not, so you better get off your lazy butt and get to work.
  2. So I deserve to have a little r&r on the weekends — don’t be so damned hard on yourself all the time.

And reality is undoubtedly somewhere in between.

Honestly, the worst part of it is getting down on myself for not working all the time that I could be. I can’t just say to hell with my quality of life, to hell with the things I enjoy, like reading and writing and working out. I can’t completely abandon the things I want to do for the things I need to do. But I can shift the emphasis.

And I can get more things done when it’s just me and the boys here (they need to see me accomplishing and working, and not just playing with them and reading to them). They’re old enough that they don’t need to be watched every second and old enough so they can and should start to help me get things done.

Weather and Electricity

8 April 2010

So in the last four or five days we finally got our rain, probably a couple of inches at least. That’s a relief, I really don’t like it when it’s dry in the spring.

On Monday night, lightning knocked out our power for a couple of hours in the middle of the night. Last night, a dead tree got blown over onto the electric wires about half a mile from our house and we lost power for two and a half hours in the evening.

And it was nice. We got the boys to bed shortly after the power went off, lit a few candles, had a drink, and just sat by the woodstove. It was very quiet and peaceful. No refrigerator running, no computers to distract from the present, just the sound of the wind to keep us company. It was a reminder of how far we’ve strayed from what has been normal human existence for the last few hundred years.

Yes, it was only one evening, but it sure fueled my off-grid fantasies.